Keeping it alive

One year from the last post! Improvement from the two years that were missed.

Still in Trivandrum, Joined back old office, working out of here, but enjoying the work that am doing still.. Roots :)

Hoping to write more...

Two years without entries.. says something about how I've been running - not that kind that makes you healthy :)

I've been thinking about the various apps/sites/tools that are supposed to connect people and the way they influence our lives.

I joined orkut to connect with my friends, then tried facebook and have been sticking to it till now.

Initially it was great fun catching up with friends you have not met in 15-20 years. Friends circle was smaller and updates were manageable to catch up on. When that increases, you see repeats of articles , jokes, photos and videos being shared, Gets boring...

Off late, I feel that it kind of makes me digress from what you have been doing and you end up wasting time. Sometimes, I login with an intention to check and wish friends for their birthdays but end up reading status updates of others, check photos or go through a shared article and spend hours without realizing. It takes lot of self control and discipline to say that I will check fb only at these times and will not spend more than, say 30 mts...Since I lack the discipline, I have stopped logging in as much as I used to do. Yes, I miss out on some serious and important updates, but am ok with it. I have never installed fb on my phone and NO I am not intending to do that ever in future as well...

Taking about the phone/mobile - it is whatsapp days. Similar to fb, when you were part of lesser number of groups, it was great fun. especially when you have family and friends who are not frequent users of a computer/laptop/tablet to be online. Now it is a complete nuisance at times especially when you see the forwarded content repeating in various groups in few mts interval. While I cant forget that it is a great way to have the instant updates and communication going, it again needs lot of discipline to not to check it every second, pick up your mobile to make calls but end up reading your messages :). You also need to delete images and videos frequently...

Having said all that, fb and whatsapp have connected me to my friends who I would have otherwise not connected back in my life and keep in touch with them. I'm part of some great groups which helps me handle my day to day stress easier than before. What it definitely requires is not to go with the flow, but ensure is being used with discipline.

S/W professionals and doctors!

When I was pregnant with my daughter 6 years back, my doctor used to tell me - "It is very tough to handle people in software field as patients.. they just read something on net and then come and eat our time with innumerous questions." At that point of time, I just brushed it off thinking that may be she is saying that because it is waste of time (and ofcourse money) for her!

After that, it was one of our family friend who said "I just hate to consult when the patient is working as software professional". His issue was the same - they waste time by asking too many questions...This happened a few months back.

Yesterday, it was one more doc who complained that these days, people just ask too many questions because they read / research on net and waste their time during consultation.

All the three are specialists in their own area and see around 70-80 patients a day and they are from three different age groups and locations!!!!

The fact is that doctors are
-  pressed for time as there are far too many patients these days (ofcourse, we rush to the doctor for things that were treated with home remedies when we were young!)
- There are genuinely people who need their attention urgently and the petty cases (in their view) are happily chatting away
- They have spent enough and more time learning what they practice while we google it for 10 mts and talk like we are the masters of the subject :)

When I was thinking about it, I also felt that sometimes medicines are not working as they should do in an ideal scenario, as we have too many doubts about the treatment. As humans, the natural tendency is to believe in the worst that we read based on the symptoms (search for headache and you may start believing that you have brain cancer). So, as the general philosophy goes, if you dont believe in something, it will not work for you,

May be, it is time for us to do some amount of contemplation and do our searches only when it is really needed - especially when it comes to medication. After all, why are there experts if one could become master of everything by 'google-ing'?!

Ofcourse there are misses/malpractice etc., etc., which pushes us to do what we do, but do you think they were not existing 20-25 years back?!

Today is supposed to be world pediatric cancer day/childhood cancer day. Idea star singer -6 seems to have had a program at RCC - Trivandrum. Watching those young ones (some just after Chemo) is heart wrenching.

Gets you thinking.. what are you doing with your life? Sometimes you are happy with getting a job, getting a car, house, anything material and sometimes you are so sad even if a dinner plan is spoilt by a sudden happening, something as silly as a call when your favorite program is going on, a deal that you have not got, traffic jam while these people are fighting for their life.

A day without the impact of the disease or the effect of chemo itself is a blessing for them. The pain that they have go through to get a day extra in their life is immense. In the last few years, have seen few of my close relatives and friends go through it - it is as painful for their close relatives as it is for them and the scars stay with the close ones for a long time when they dont survive. Kids who have really not seen anything in this world suffering from cancer - I just cant understand what is 'fair' about God. I hope medical field advances soon enough to cure it completely for these young ones. Pray God give enough strength and the resources for those parents to go through this.

For the rest of us (including myself), pls. realise that there is nothing in life better than good health and stop cribbing!

Funny that I have not written after that last post about my leaving my first job - I joined and left another one in the meantime...Right now, totally jobless, and hence have time to spare to type a few lines.. where I've not been active for a LONGGGGGG time!

It is almost a month since I left my job, truly this time, but have not missed having a job.... yet!

Gains - Have made trips without thinking much about what work is pending, when I should apply for leave etc., Taking care of the needs of the house and family without having time pressure, spending a lots of time with Kim, able to handle the unexpected events like dropping her in the dance class at short notice, and unexpected holidays and her programs, not getting irritated with her when she finds something and gets engrossed while I ask her to do something else, more flexible on timings to sleep, exercise and take naps in between :) and generally being cool most of the times! At times, I feel that I've still not learnt to utilise the break:(.... Everyday is a learning....

Loss - interactions with friends/colleagues at office which leads to learning in someway or other. Sometimes browse too much of TV out of boredom....Spoils your day....

Anyway, have decided to enjoy this while it lasts :D

I don't seem to find the right words... Two weeks from now is going to be the last day at this office. Am feeling sentimental. These days shifting jobs is not such a big thing.. everyone does it once in every few years. But close to 13 years in one place - it grows on you.... Not that I've been at the same location with the same team, but more or less, I've been with the same product all through out.

Just out of college, 15 of us were chosen to be in the team with a great person, who had the idea and believed in us to get the idea into an actual product. We all learnt from him and from several others, seniors and juniors, who joined the team as the time passed. Everything was new (atleast for me) and we all believed in the idea and were completely enthusiastic to deliver what has been told. As any new product idea, we saw it getting different names, positioning, technologies - frustrating when you had to cope up with the speed of the change - but it all helped us learn. I've been lucky to have been part of the delivery, implementation and testing teams over the years which has shaped up my career.

I have had my ups and downs, have made my share of mistakes, have had in-numerous fights with teams, have had fun, have made friends ...

Personally - I owe lots to this place - I met my husband here ;)

When I completed 10 years here, friends who had left (who were part of the team of 15) commented that I will retire from here. I believed that I will do so even 5 months back!

Hmmm.. but then things change, priorities change and the change itself starts to happen. I am going to be in a new city, new job, new language and new culture.. Yes i've done it before, but without the job part... That comfort is not there this time :(. But as usual, the adventurous me thinks Change is for good and is going to add more to my experience, maturity and growth and so... am all ready to face yet another challenge!

Happy New year and to all the folks who celebrate Pongal - Happy Pongal!

Resolution for this year to blog more than last year... Let us see how this goes :)

My second post for this year would be the US experience... Have been collecting my thoughts over the last few days (may be weeks) and will 'key' it all soon... Watch this space!

Daily Horoscope of facebook - This is what I have been thinking about today!

I have become a 'facebook' addict and everyday I look at the daily horoscope. I feel happy when I read something interesting or nice (It also gives a thrill to read the next days horoscope at 7 pm IST). I dont give a damn whether it actually happens or not, but generally it gives a good feel to start the next day.

I realised how much my thoughts (may be everyone's thought if they beleive in any kind of horoscope) revolve around what is written and I kind of made it true because of the intense thinking! Yesterday in the daily horoscope, it was stated that I should be careful about driving this weekend. Ever since I took the car to go and pick up Kim, it was there in my mind - how much ever I was trying to shoo it away, it just remained!! So I was EXTRA careful and ofcourse tensed as well. I went to school, picked her up, waited in traffic for a long time to take a cut (all because I was being careful :)) and came to the library to pick up a few books. While taking the car out, I did not realise and hit a old man's scooter down. Completely my mistake and I was lucky on two counts, he was not in a bad mood and the vehicle was not moving. I was going on saying sorry and he just left it with a few lines of advise 'You should also look at the side mirror while taking reverse.. etc.,' and everyone around told me how to reverse :(... But after that happened, I was like 'Oooffff!! Finally it has happened. Now I dont need to worry' and I drove like usual and without that BIG tension that was there since yesterday night....

If I look at the whole thing logically, I just feel that my constant thinking about the mention of accident and the tension that arouse out of the whole thing is what made me hit that scooter. My conclusion: When you read/hear what is going to happen as per your sun sign/jadhagam, I guess somewhere in the sub conscience, it registers. It is always in the back of your mind, you end up thinking about it so much, you almost make it happen - then say what was told was true :)

You know what I found? August seems to be a month of blogging inactiveness for me.. - Consistently for the last three years!!! Surprising... and I dont think I've an explanation for this! Anyway, but what matters now is that am back...
Couple of weeks back, my daughter did not have school in the morning and my husband left her at her day care (WeCare) 15 minutes earlier than her usual time. Nothing was told to him then and nothing was written in her diary for couple of days. Two days later, when I went to pick her up, I was asked 'Mam, when are you going to pay the 200 Rs'.. I was like 'What 200??!!' Her teacher says 'that day you left her 15 minutes early, that one..'
First thought was 'Wow, 200 Rs? Am already paying a bomb compared to other day cares. Not too sure if am getting everything that was promised. I've never come late to pick up my daughter. She comes from school at 2 and spend 3.5 hours while what I pay is for 6 hours and on top of it, am being asked in a rude tone (may be thats the way this teacher talks normally also, may be lack of confidence over the language) for 200 Rs!!!!'
I told her 'Why didn't anyone tell about this to my husband when he dropped her that day?!' Her reply 'This is what it is mam, everyone knows - whether they are doing late pickup or early drop, so much should be paid'.. I said 'Am not going to pay' and walked off.
After cooling down a bit and analysing it logically, these were my thoughts 'I chose to enrol my daughter here despite the cost because of the comfort that I had with the facilities and the way it is run. There were only two packages one was full day or half a day. I chose the half a day. I dont have any other option now as shifting anywhere else mean loosing that admission fee that I have already paid. Do I have a problem paying 200 Rs - No, then Why am I getting irritated? It is because I was not informed about this when my daughter was left there early and am not too sure about whether informed at all as I remember clearly that there is a fine when you pick them up later than the agreed time. and the way I was told about paying did not go well may be because of the mood I was in or the mood the teacher was in!'
So I paid the money and I told them I will not refer anyone as am not happy with this incident etc., (I guess just to satiate my ego :)) and came off...
In retrospect, I think communication at the right time in the right way is what matters to get any kind of relationship thrive or become sour... More about this in the next post....

RESTLESS is how I feel today.. Mainly because of work I guess.. May be it is time I start doing something different. The mood is reflecting at home as well. Nothing seems to interest me really, which according to me happens only to people who have let their work rule their life. Sigh!! Time to do a reality check!.

Bigger problem is that I dont think that I can do without the mental stimulation and kick I get out of working. There were times (When Kim was born) when I seriously thought that I should quit and be at home. Seems that I somehow did not get around it which is good.. if I had had, I would have gone crazy by this time.

So coming back to the point, that work has become life mostly, it is time I think of doing something outside work that will sustain my interest by constantly challenging me. Music is one that I've always wanted to learn further, may be thats what I should do...

A perspective of social networking websites....

On the other day, I was telling my friend that he was never active in orkut and he is not active in facebook either... While I was updating him about what our mutual friends are posting he was telling me about how these things can be received by emails as well and you dont need to read someone else's posts blah blah... so the conversation went on around this and he made a statement 'I somehow feel that people who are very active in social networking websites are having exhibitionist and/or voyeuristic tendencies.. Otherwise why will people be so open about what is happening in their lives and comment about what is happening in others!' - Got me thinking....

Why do people join these websites - I think majority do it out of curiosity to see what is there and also to claim 'I've been there and done that'...

I was very active in orkut and figured out most of my friends had started using facebook and I joined facebook as well. I am very active there as I believe in sharing what I feel with my friends. Dont I've other modes of communicating that? Yes, i can do it through mails, calls or just dropping inif they are close by... but orkut/facebook gives me a wider audience. I post when I feel sad/happy/proud/sick/tired and a few from the network always comment with the right words. I come out of depression/be more happy and feel consoled at the appropriate times. And there is joy in getting touch with your old friends , people from school, college and your town...Being a social animal and living in apartments (most of the time without knowing who your neighbours are) and being online most of your waking hours, what other better mode can be available to make your life interesting?!! i cant think of many...

13-May-2010

Day started with lots of tension. Previous day my grandmothers doc had met my brother and explained to him about the fungal infection that she had got which had caused the breathing difficulties. She was put on oxygen and the doctor had asked if something happens, whether we want to keep her alive through life support. It was deja vu for us as the similar kind of situation happened almost 4 years back when my mom's dad had a clot in his brain and our answer this time was the same - No, we dont want her to suffer.

Given this situation, we wanted to take her back to Mettur which is our home town 200 kms from Bangalore. We had to shift her in an ambulance with oxygen as per the doc's advise. Kim, myself and my brother were there at the hospital. Patti was conscious, but was very tired to speak. She smiled at Kimaya, and had her lunch. after that, she told my brother that she is going to sleep and slept off. She did not regain her consciousness after that. After meeting the doc once again, finishing all the discharge formalities, we left the hospital at 4:45 pm.. I was in the ambulance along with Patti and driver and my brother was supposed to follow in the car, but because it was peak hour and he had to go and pick up the other patti and Zeta, by the time he was out of Bangalore, ambulance had reached Krishnagiri.

Though I was slightly afraid in the beginning, after an hour of travel, as her condition was stable, I was very confident. I was holding her hand and singing some of the songs that she likes. (more to control the way my mind getting worked up about the situation). We reached Mettur, and were 15 minutes away from home, I called up everyone to tell that she is still stable and should be ok. Just after a few minutes after the call, She opened her eyes, I asked her 'What Patti, we have reached Mettur and in a few minutes we will be home', she tried looking around and then closed her eyes, her breathing started slowing down - I realised that all that I've heard the way people die is coming true infront of my eyes, and am helpless.. Screamed to the driver that her breathing is slowing down, he came and increased oxygen, then did not tell me anything and asked me how far are we from home, i said, may be a couple of minutes, we rushed home. I was patting her cheeks and was continously calling out 'Patti, Patti'... All the neighbours were waiting to see Patti (advantage of being in small town), they saw me panicking and shifted her to her bed and started oxygen again, but by that time, her breathing had completely stopped and only pulse was left. In a matter of seconds, that also stopped.

Later I learnt from the driver that when he increased the oxygen levels, it actually went back into the cylinder (meaning she was not inhaling) and so he knew she was in her last few seconds.

I just did not know what to make of the situation. Did not want to believe that she is gone, also was feeling that it is good that she is gone without suffering. I've been replaying this in my mind several times since that Thursday - it was as if that she held on to her life till she reached Mettur. More I think of it, the more I believe that if you intensely wish for something , it will happen. She used to tell us that she should die in Mettur and even if something happens else where we should take her back to Mettur to do the last rites and that is exactly what she got.... amazing.

The phenomena in itself - being alive one second and gone the next and also the question about the unknown part of what happens to the 'soul' after that - is still lingering on my mind and will be there the rest of my life!

May her soul rest in peace. We all will miss you paatti...

Hunger makes me angry and irritated, big time!

For the past few days, I've been forgetting my snacks which I try and have at around evening in office, I come back home feeling ravenous. Since my mood goes for a toss, I invariably end up fighting with Kim while bringing her back from day care. Felt sad about that, chided myself for not behaving like a grown up when I know the root cause of my behavior, today, I took my snack(an energy bar).

Got stuck in office , hurried to Kim's day care at the last minute, picked her up and was stuck in traffic also. Finally, with great difficulty, (car stopped twice and people were honking behind me, but I was determined not to stay hungry!), I opened my bag and took my snack bar. Kim turned and saw it. There went my snack - "Amma, enakku idhu romba pidikkum amma, but I will share it with you ". Sharing is something that she is learning newly and reluctantly she gives me 1/20th of the snack bar and with that much going in, my body was screaming for more and the result is - read the first statement!

When I reached home, I was glad that food was ready for the evening, filled up the plate and sat to eat. One would think that my mood would have got better as I've finally seen food! NO....When there are four kids around - one a 3.5 yrs old, two above 80+ and one canine - all trying to grab my attention one way or the other over and above the noise from TV, even before my brain realised that I'm taking care of the hunger, the irritation just ended up becoming exponential. If I look back at the situation it is just hilarious but, believe me, it did not seem so while I was experiencing it. Finally I ended up screaming at all of them at the top of my voice and ofcourse ended up feeling bad - ONCE AGAIN!!!!!

There are some days when you really feel that you are lost. Today is one such day. I've to keep reminding myself what are the things that needs to be done and have to push myself to go on doing those. I think it is a fight between mind, body and heart. Mind is fresh and clear and ready to go, heart is in its own world and the body tired becuase of the bout of fever and the intake of antibiotics. They dont have an aligned goal(effects of appraisal discussions!) to work towards. Such conflicts makes the day very unproductive as I keep jumping from one task to another OR think that am doing so many tasks in parallel, but not complete anything.In these situations, normally music helps - especially Ilayaraja's, but today that did not help. Tried the songs from 'Kadhaal Vedham' of Hariharan.. This is associated with lots of memories for me, even that did not help much. Finally the only solution was to take the tasks as they come to make the day atleast a decently productive one...

This years birthday was celebrated with a difference.


I went to Trivandrum to participate in the pongala for Attukal bagavathy devi. Every year it comes around the end of Feb or beginning of March. This year it happened on my birthday Feb 28th. My MIL has been doing it for more than 20 years. She believes in the devi completely. It has gained popularity over years and this year the count was around 30 Lakhs. Ever since I got married, I've been talking about attending one and finally this time I made it.


Our place was in someone's house who my MIL and her friends know for years and they have been doing pongala in this house for the past 10+ years. There are around 11 places reserved our group. Place is around a feet by two approximately which is just enough for keeping the 3 bricks (which is the stove) and for you to stand infront of that. And there is just a few inch gap between yours and the next persons. The necessary materials - bricks, mud pot, Dry coconut leaves, and 'kodumbu' or 'kodhumbu'(this exists in the tree along with the coconut flowers, just could not find the english equivalent!) had been kept in that house a week back. People who dont have any such pre arrangement find it very difficult to get a place. some of them come the previous day and sit in any of the 'allowed' pongala streets/roads...


We packed each of our bags with the 250 gms of rice, a kilo of jaggery, ghee, coconut, water to drink, paper to pack the pot after pongala, some vessels to wash the rice, plates to cover the pots, knife and towels on Saturday. On the day of pongala, we got ready by 4:45 am in the morning. Autos that were booked, a week in advance, picked us up and took us to a place called kaaladi which is around a km from the temple. Police and volunteers work round the clock to regulate traffic. I felt that the whole city understands the enormousity of this event and all were working towards making things done smoothly. We had a glitch - one of the autos ran out of petrol and with gods grace got another auto who agreed to drop us at our destination - I was told that our auto had two first timers and devi generally try to test the faith. At that moment, I just hoped that things will go on smoothly. My problem is that if something wrong happens, then I start attributing every little mishaps that come in life to this incident for a long time..


We reached their house at around 6:30 am. Some of my MIL's friends had reached earlier. Bricks were arranged in a line. All pots were kept on the 'aduppu/stove' after washing, filled with required amount of water, all kodhumbu kept near us for easy access, rice washed and kept ready near the pot - all these activities took an hour and a half. We wanted to have a darshan of devi before the pongala began. I think usually, someone in the group manages to get special passes and hence they go from side gates and finish their darshan in less than half an hour time. Am of the opinion that any darshan, you should go through the hardship everyone goes through for you to value it that much. Also, the positive vibes of the crowd also gets to you while standing and hence you feel good (funda :)). This time, they could not manage any passes and so we went to the main gate, saw the hugggggggeeeeeeee line and returned back as we did not want to miss the start time.

At 10:10 am, everyone was ready and almost waiting for the 'get, set, go' signal. In the temple, the main pongala aduppu was lit and there was this sound of the drums and kolavai along with that which is heard in the places close to the temple and I believe in the places slightly far off, they go by the live telecast... All of us, lit our aduppu from the lamp that the owner of the house had lit and started the process of making pongala - which is letting the water to come to boil, put the washed rice in it after putting a little in the aduppu, wait till it boil and flows out of the pot, add jaggery and wait for the pongala to get done. After that add roasted coconut pieces, cardomom powder etc., Since I've used firewood stoves at home when I was in school, I had less trouble in getting the pongala done with minimal use of resources (I was feeling very proud about it!), while I saw many struggling. Fire was outside the aduppu also for some and for some there was so much smoke. Whatever it was, it was a problem for the person standing next to them. I saw two things that are taught in fire drills being used here. 1. Everyone is insisted to sit as you tend to be less affected by smoke than when you are standing 2. All were using wet towels to safegaurd their eyes and also to be able to breathe in the smoke.

Sun was not too bright till we finished making pongala and there was less wind. I was prepared enough by everyone for the worst conditions and hence it was a pleasant surprise. After finishing the pongala, it is just closed and kept on the aduppu. Fire is also put off. The house owner was serving lunch after hers was finished. While there were some in the group who doesnot eat till the neivedyam is over (which was scheduled at 3:15 pm), since I felt guiddy even during the middle of when I was making it, I decided to go ahead and eat. HAd lunch and waited for everyone elses to get over. Refreshed a little bit and went and stood in the longgggggggg line. It was organised so well that in an hour, we had a nice darshan and were out. Waited for the neivedyam in the main sannidhi and waited for the 'potri' to come to our place and sprinkle water in our pots. Since they make it a point that every single pot is offered to the god, thousands of potri's go around all the places where pongala was put and the entire process is managed within a couple of hours.

As soon as that gets over, people immediately leave. Police and volunteers everywhere to regulate the traffic. We had a flight to catch at 7:45 pm and hence took off as soon as the neivedyam happened. Even with couple of traffic jams, reached home on time, packed our luggages and reached airport just about half an hour before the flight departure! All through the way back, there were several people distributing juices, watermelon pieces, water to all the devotees.

I was just amazed about the planning and execution of the entire phenomena. Hats off to the organisers!

For me, this is the first time, I've ever done something so spritual in life and I kind of felt so contented...

Got this on mail today. LOL!!!!!!

Her looks and hugs when she is afraid, her smile when she is happy, her expression when she is shy or sad or hurt, the gleam in her eyes when she is about to do something naughty, her laughter when something funny occurs - It is all worth a fortune and hope I will remember all these even when she grows up...

The way she holds my hand when she goes to sleep, the way she looks at me when she is hurt -thinking that my words and hugs will heal her, the way she holds me tight when she is afraid thinking that I will protect her from every evil in the world - the way my heart feels in those moments is something that I cannot describe in words..

The pride and joy that i get when I see her solve a puzzle, learn something new, dance, sing etc., Now I can understand that tamil proverb 'kakaikku than kunju pon kunju'(loosely translated - even for a crow its child is the best in the world). Hope I just encourage her to do things that interest her and not push her to something because it interests me.

My daughter.. she is the best in the world. I love you Kim. Thank you god!

Very emotional day today. After so much of thinking, I made this trip with my brother in the morning to attend a wedding. Had to really push myself so hard as I had hundred reasons not to do it - like it is in the middle of the week, have to wake up really early in the morning (at 2 am) as it is an early muhurtam etc., etc., But my heart was telling me that I somehow should make it and at the end, I am glad I did it!

This is a wedding of the daughter of a family friend. We stayed in their house for rent from when I was a few months baby till I became 8. And even when we moved to other houses in the same town and finally to our own one, the relationship continued. The uncles and aunts got married and they had their kids and we all grew up together and as friends. Once i went off to study and then to work, it kind of has been a diluted relationship (and there were tiffs between elders on numerous things and they kind of agreed to disagree and parted) atleast from my side. We used to meet rarely, but used to get updates from parents and other common friends about the happenings and whereabouts.

I was touched by the number of people who love me unconditionally and I was feeling bad that I have not taken too many minutes in my life to tell them that I remember them and I cherish all the memories. There is this aunt who used to feed me and play with me and keep my engaged and consider me as her eldest daughter - I realised that I've not seen her in 16 years!!! She actually fed me today also :) Likewise, there were so many - I was really feeling heady after talking to all of them. They all were really really HAPPY to see us after so long. And I'm happy that I listened to my heart!

Going to try being off facebook, google chat and other chats for a month. Feel that it is complete addiction and am wasting my precious time waiting for something to happen. May be as my colleague says that we are not built to scale up to handle all the intervention that they bring in.
Hope that will give me time to put down my thoughts here more frequently. :)

When there is a problem, there are three things one can do - 1. think of the problem and start sulking that it has happened to me, why only to me, why others are happy and I got this problem etc., etc., 2. think of what would solve this problem 3. Just ignore the problem and let your life go on thinking that such a problem doesnot exist.

#1: I feel that this thinking makes you get depressed, disappointed and create more problems for yourself. So it is a viscious cycle. You are never going to be happy.
#2: Solution oriented. Anything in life works fantastically if you start thinking about the solution. Sure way of being happy.
#3: Escapism. You think you are happy but you never are and never will be.

There is only one life and why should you waste it being unhappy? Live it and Be Happy!